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not long before i hop across the pacific again for another year in china; to what increasingly feels more like home than America the beautiful.  i think i was home just long enough this time... to see friends, research future plans, and breathe a little fresh air.

i spent the last week out in denver with two good friends from college.  both are married, one is already a father nearly twice over!  i had lots of fun being an uncle to the "beans" (their daughter's nickname), and enjoyed plugging into their lives temporarily. 

nevertheless, i think my turn at fatherhood will probably be at least a few more years in the making... it seems most of my plans are still very much in the becoming.  scratch that, most of who I am is in the becoming.  my ideas about purpose, faith, value, relationships, and vocation have all undergone revision in the past few years.  though it sometimes seems a scary or overwhelming rewrite, it's more often a healthy process of assimilating my own person to the way truth is revealing itself around me.

i suppose i had previously hoped or believed that one day i'd awake to "adulthood", where I had more or less arrived at physical, vocational, existential, and spiritual maturity.  well, if so, i guess the alarm hasn't gone off to wake me from my slumber.  in fact, i've grown skeptical that such a day is ever arriving, but i'm not sure i'm all that disappointed.

so here comes china for at least one more year.  still plenty of new things to wake up to and explore.  after that.....?  let me know if you've got any bright ideas.